Lusting…

wishlist11. Nars – Narssist Dual Intensity Eyeshadow palette £45 – Available at here – I recently saw a makeup tutorial on Vintage or Tacky showing using this palette, I instantly fell in love!! The blue looks beautiful definitely want to try but not sure about that price tag…If anyone has any discount codes send them my way pleeeeease!!

2. Body Shop – Instablur Eye – Availabe here – I’m a sucker for a primer, this promises to help with under eye darkness and helps concealer stay put…will be my next purchase

3. Anastasia Beverly Hills – Dip Brow Pomade £15 – Available here – I REALLY want to try this, I’ve heard so many great reviews about it just not sure what shade i need…Ebony? Ash Brown? Chocolate? Dark Brown?

4. Body Shop – Instablur All-In-One Primer -Available here –  Again with the primer, as mine is nearly finished and this comes highly recommended I will give this one a go…

5. Flower Bomb by Viktor Rolf – Refillable bottle is £79 – Available here – This is among my FAVE perfumes that I have now sadly finished…anyone looking to buy me a birthday present this year, I can promise you buy me the refillable bottle and I’d love you for a lifetime!!

On To Pastures New…

So I’ve finally got a plan to revive MacBook Diaries and have taken blogging on the road by downloading the WordPress app onto my iPad. I can now blog on my travels instead of waiting until I get home where I am distracted by a million and one things and remember just as I’m about to go to sleep “oh, I wanted to blog today”. So right now I am blogging on the train to/from work, at dance while I wait for my daughter, anywhere really.

To kickstart my new and improved more organised self I will make this post about planning. I feel like I drifted through last year, I had no real plans and didn’t achieve a single thing. My Plannerisms diary sat untouched for an entire year (an unsused notebook, now that makes me really sad). After talking to one of my long time friends one evening about goals and what we wanted to achieve she told me about the 101 in 1001 list that has been popping up on thousands of blogs over the past few years.

You basically make a list of 101 things you want to achieve in the next 1001 days (that’s a little over 2.5 years). The goals have to be realistic and  achievable and have some kind of time frame to them. I like the fact that you have 2.5 years to complete it as you can really plan big and have time to plan and save for any big expenditures. 

Marteen’s 101 in 1001 

Start date: 27th January 2015

Completion date: October 25th 2017

1. Complete 101 in 1,001 list (04 Feb 2015)

2. Take Jaelyn Horse riding

3. Find a business mentor 

4. Get finger tattoo

5. Read 33 books (One a month and keep a list)

6. Go on a make up course

7. Learn to cook Ox Tail

8. Start jogging, hopefully make it a habit and jog everyday

9. Make a new friend

10. Go on a ski holiday

11. Make a patchwork blanket

12. Open Scratch&Pout

13. Pass AAT level 4

14. Get a weave a dye it pink/purple ombré 

15. Get box braids/Havana twists

16. (Private)

17. Use budget diary every day for a year and keep track of spending.

18. Clear credit cards!

19. Take mum out for dinner

20. Go on a date

21. Start blogging regularly at least once a week

22. Get a penpal

23. Go to yoga at least once a month

24. Keep a daily journal

25. Fall in love

26. Bake with Jaelyn

27. Make 10 things off of Pinterest – keep a list

28. Go to the theatre

29. Ice skating at somerset House

30. Outdoor cinema

31. Drive in cinema

32. Have dinner at Duck & Waffle

33. Write a book review

34. Enter a Colour Run

35. 10 mins a day – Abs!

36. Make a meal in the Crockpot slow cooker

37. Make a scrapbook

38. Learn a new language (Portuguese or Dutch)

39. Go away for a weekend by myself

40. Go to a spa 

41. Find a church I enjoy

42. Put £10 away for each goal met

43. Go to a good Vintage store and buy something

44. Go back to ballet and Tap

45. Host a Masquerade Ball

46. (Private)

47. Get Veneers

48. Get tattoo for Jaelyn

49. Go on holiday just Jae and I

50. (Private)

51. Order something from Net-a-porter

52. Get a new car

53. Perfect the winged eyeliner

54. Learn to use my eyeshadows properly and use different colours

55. Go to Paris

56. Visit Anne Frank Museum

57. Go to Cochella

58. Go to Glastonbury Festival

59. Host a games/movie night at mine

60. Make a vlog

61. Watch a sunrise with someone

62. Volunteer

63. Give to the charity Water Aid

64. Enter a new relationship

65. Go to Wireless Festival for the WHOLE weekend

66. Clear my room

67. Get the perfect storage for my make up

68. Lose weight by June 2015

69. Have an evening/night out with my sisters

70. Print photos for photo album

71. Document each completed task on my blog

72. Get a facial (14 Feb 2015)

73. Have a tech free weekend (oh the anxiety)

74. Go on a picnic

75. Go to a museum I have never been to before

76. Have a day out with Marley

77. Get branding done for Scratch&Pout

78. Get a “Marteen” Necklace

79. Buy a digital camera in time for holiday

80. Buy a Tiffany Necklace to match bracelet

81. Have an Inspiration Board 

82. Cook a new recipe each week and track

83. Go to midnight mass on Christmas Eve

84. Take a pole dancing class

85. Wake up at 6am everyday (make it a habit)

86. Practice yoga and meditation three times a week at home (more if it becomes a habit)

87. Go to bed by 10pm every night

88. Get a pedicure

89. Watch the entire Games of Thrones series

90. See my Daddy more often, at least once a month

91. Get a new address book since i lost mine and log family and friends addresses and birthdays

92. Buy a lottery ticket on rollover days

93. Wear matching underwear!!

94. Plan family event

95. Take God-Children out (One a month)

96. Start my blog/vlog series 

97. Watch a NBA game

98. Own a the Michael Kors watch i wanted from Florida

99. Make saving plan for Florida holiday and save

100. Do a mummy and daughter photoshoot

101. Make another 101 in 1001 days list!!

I love my list, some are big events, some small and meaningless to another person but each of them gives me something to look forward to. I will update my list as each task is completed. Will you be doing a list of your own? If so, let me know I’d love to see it. 

It’s safe to say…

…I completely flopped since my last post.

2014…it’s almost over and i believe i have achieved nothing, completely wasted my year…

Still not passed my AAT level 4, Still overweight and often reminded of that fact, still single 😦

This year was another roller coaster, this time in the terms of deaths, my Grandad who had been ill for a very long time sadly passed away in April and unexpectedly my Great-Aunt died last month. Not to say everything was doom and gloom for the whole year, far from it, but at the time when i had originally planned to take my exams we had to deal with Grandad. So i am now behind schedule and it’s a weight i need to shift… I have no boyfriend, was seeing someone but thats fizzled out a bit and we’re clashing a lot of late (Thats material for another post), so now i’m just lonely.

I decided after doing something i’m not proud of off the back of being lonely and getting a serious wake up call that it was time i sorted out my life. ON A REALS!

So I am trying to stay focussed by doing the following:

No.1 – I have stepped my fitness up a notch, I need to lose this belly especially before June next year! I have a hen do in Tenerife with a lot of sexy ladies and i refuse to be Miss Piggy trying to keep up with them hiding from the camera’s and avoiding the pools.

No.2 – As of Jan i will have my revision timetable and exams booked (One a month) and will pass AAT Level 4 by August, that includes my project, no more lessons just straight revision but i will go into college as if i had a class so the teachers can help me should i need any.

No.3 – Be Happy! I’m sick of being down, I’m trying my best to keep positive, think positively and act positively. I also encourage everyone around me to do the same and chase their dreams, if you’re thinking or acting in a negative way i cannot have you around me, i’m sorry but I don’t need you dragging me down.

No.4 – I need a hobby/hobbies! seriously! still trying to find my passion, I love everything hair and beauty and especially more on the hair side now i’m wearing mine curly and have a curly haired 5 year old daughter too. BUT i need to turn this hobby into some kind of business…do something i love…I enjoy accounting but its repetitive and locks me to a desk. Not sure thats me to be honest, but i don’t want all my studying to go to waste so the sooner i can work for myself and mix things up the better.

No.5 – Save some money!

I’ve now lost my trail of thought for this post so leaving it here, gonna hang up clothes and plan my next post…

See ya!!

Hard Out Here #HOH

I love Lilly Allen! I always have and HOH is the perfect example of why…as I sit here (location undisclosed) blogging for the first time in nearly a month I’m happily singing along to this tune…

Exams soon come STRESS!!!! How do you deal with studying, working and a child??? I find I have no time/energy to revise, like right now I could be revising but I don’t have the mental strength to sit with a calculator and do all it takes to do at least an hours worth, which i might add is one question. I leave the desk thinking i have completed nothing…

Let me just get back to singing along with Miss Allen any suggestions let me know!

So…basically i need to fix up!

I got locked out of my WordPress again and had no intention of logging back in until…

…my phone chimed whilst I was on my lunch break as I had been sent a message to say my dear friend from secondary school’s website had finally been launched. Naturally i responded with the customary “whoop whoop’ and hopped onto google chrome typed in the url www.bestversionofme.co.uk that led me to her site.

Whilst there, reading her first blog post, I felt like she was talking about me…from how she was feeling to her own personal goals they were all relevant to myself, even though we have both gone through different things in life. The only difference with the two of us was that she is actively doing something about it, whereas I am stuck in thinking and talking about it, putting it in action for a day or two and then forgetting and falling back into laziness…

Dominique (that’s her name) even refers to a blog post I made here years ago where I talk about bettering myself as a person. I have been so crap at keeping it up that I even forgot I wrote it and had to go through my archive to double check…classic Marteen, Nuff talk and No Action!!!

This has to change…

So to start I dug out my plannerism planner, and wrote down this quarters goals…they seem quite insignificant compared to other peoples with only two major things on there. But i need to start small, get my head right then look at the bigger picture. So from those goals I went along and wrote the ones that only relate to October in the October month! *et voila* This months check list…

Now the hard part, its easy to put pen to paper and say “I’m going to do this, I’m going to do that” but now i have to push myself out of the laziness and DO IT! something as easy as declutter for 5 mins a day is a chore when all i want to do is go to bed, or my Black Girls Work Out Too fitness DVD that I know is only 45 mins long is a struggle in the morning because i LOVE my sleep and cherish every last minute i can, but as my cousin says if your eyes can open you have had enough sleep. Luckily my body clock doesn’t let me sleep past 9am so any chance of a real lie in is completely out the window.

So I have pledged to Dominique that I too will join her on the journey to better myself, because its always better with company right? And can I just point out that she shares the same love for Filofaxes, planners and stationery…I’m not the only loser!! 😀

***Sorry this little girl is currently hanging off her bed talking in her sleep…why does she sleep so wild?!?!***

I will do my best to keep you, if anyone reads this, posted too. I know I say it every time, but i find this quite therapeutic writing my thoughts down and getting them out. I must say I defo need church and am now actively on the hunt for a new one, one where i feel comfortable and that the priest/preacher/pastor whatever you decide to call them is talking to me rather than at me. I find I used to attend my old one be bored out of my head and leave not knowing what they spoke about at any one point during the service. I also need to pray more although I’m not even sure I remember how…but it needs to be done as a family, me and my princess. I especially need it because i still find myself getting angry at times with regards to certain people, i just think its 2013 now my year of hell (2012) is over but as people like attention and dragging their feet and drama in their lives shit got dragged into this year too…hopefully 2014 will be better, with a bit of luck i wont have to deal with them again, only when necessary…I feel the power of faith, prayer and God will help me succeed.

I am also actively trying to eradicate all negative people from my life, that includes not involving myself with negative conversations because they do nothing to help me…although the odd one will slip here and there, attention seeking on Facebook when you need to be minding your pickney, people that TRY their best to be funny when really they’re just not, they’re actually make me cringe and grate my nerves instead, or simply people who clearly have the wrong foundation on and go out with grey faces looking like Michael jackson, why haven’t your friends dragged you to MAC to get colour matched?!?! or are you being heavy handed with the setting powder?!?! I don’t get it.

See these are the things I am trying not to get involved with but sometimes it just has to be said…Bitch Rant over…

Instead I’m trying to focus on the positive. I have a new mantra

thoughts become things

I got it from The Secret (which i actually need to finish). So thinking positive will lead to  positive outcomes.

Speaking of positivity, something that makes me happy! Soca Music!! I cannot keep still, I’m listening to Martin Jay’s Episode 2 of The Caribbean Affair of of Socavision.com and anyone who knows me KNOWS how much I love Soca. Right now its tunes that are a few years old that I haven’t heard in a while “I’m a Sooooooca Warrior”. Thank God for the Internet and his passion to keep Soca alive, as I for sure would be LOST if i didn’t have his show to listen to every week. I’ve grown up on it and I want Jae to grow up on it to, Marts voice is like home and a part of me…especially as I don’t go to many Soca raves anymore…I never know when they’re on…can someone bring back Colours?!?

Not happy with the take over of Choice fm though, all im saying is  Capital xtra aint getting me as a listener, I turned on my radio that Friday or Saturday morning, whatever day it was and heard NOISE from the speakers, two songs in, it was the same noise, signs of the changes to come, it weren’t for me, radio turned off…Now i have to find a new station…

went off topic there didn’t I?…lol

I think it’s bed time but I like this new Shurwayne song *bubbles on bed*

Til next time Homie xxx

The Capital B means im about that life…

Whilst making my way through my unread blog roll on Bloglovin i came across this post on Necole Bitchie’s page. I just had to share with my 2 readers lol so check out Bey’s new single Bow Down below, it has mixed reviews on the Bloogersphere, I’m in two minds I like it but at the same time im like “Bitches bow down??? To who??” LOL. Either way I’m sure it will grow on me the way ‘Girls (Run The World)’ did and I will learn all the words in time for her concert in May!

Let me know your thoughts!